18 days to end of course!

I think some big thing happened today. But I don’t know what the outcome is. I WANT TO KNOW. I’m scared. I’m fearful. I’m worried.

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Methinks I’m an aimless person. I’ve been juggling the options of FASS appeal, NUS Biz, SMU Biz, Durham Social Sciences, and Australia Psychology. The last two are subject to approval by the money-givers The first depends largely on the outcome of my NUS applications.

We’re moving on the 27 May 2009! My room has been painted, hoo ha. Blue scheme, not what I was thinking of before that One wall has stripes :s I’m just hoping I won’t get sick of it in due time. In other happy news, we’ve got a Wii Console! Huzzah.

Many things will happen this month, things I’ve never thought would happen, things I’ve never imagined would occur. But they will, and one by one, they are being revealed by the One above, who rules over all, and has the best ideas and plans for you and me. It’s been a wild ride these 5 months, anticipation, disappointment, resentment, impatience, impulsiveness, disbelief, lack of faith, and so much more. And no, life doesn’t get easier. But at least, I’m being tried and tested over the fire, gaining new insights, acquiring a new measure of faith, and learning a new kind of acceptance, a new outlook on apparent failure.

Saying that, it’s not like I’ve instantly accepted all that has happened these months past.

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Help.